So... I actually made it. And not only that, I've made it with flying colours. I'm a Master of Arts... Strange...
And to all that didn't believe I will (including myself) - you REALLY should known better.

I still haven't fully realized it and I don't feel reliefe just yet. It's funny, I've always thought I will be more scared at this point. You know, endings, beginings, this sort of things, they used to make me panic... but I'm not scared now (at least not yet ). Whaterver will be will be. I'm... almost serene, which is unlikely to me. And I'm doing something with my life (don't laugh, it makes me sad)

Someone told me that I changed my style and it suits me. And I look like I've started thinking about myself at last. I don't think it's like this, and even if it is... all this things just happened. But it was a nice thing to hear.

Seems I really have those "god-like powers", like one of my colleagues said, observing how I deal with impossible situations (half of them was my fault actually). To be honest I just have this tendency to create incredible chaos around myself and sometimes things just fall into right places in the end. But in the middle of this process my life's a nightmare, and I make my friends life hard. Sorry about that. And thanks to all who stayed with me after all.

P.S.: And... Gryf, I think you should know, one of your ways to motivate was really the way to do it (and others were just terrible and stressful, and don't ever use them on me again ). Thank you, luv